just got home from a night out with trainer ko and assistant siahaan. this two boys no joke man, they really put me through all the traumas, phobias and fears i have in me to make me forget things and be strong. so yea, picked leon from work then yuquan and headed to bedok 85 for supper, then it was straight to east coast park! so yea, crazy things like driving against the flow of traffic, peeing through a railing, yuquan walking barefooted and many more.then the training began. all the images were thrown to me to imagine and to make me get immune to them because those are the things i think of when i'm alone at home. so yea, we listened to music, talk about stuff, watched the moon and the stars. the waves were nice, the lightning was cool. we edited one of our favourite songs to be sung loudly by me...
coz he did run his mouth and brag about your secret rendezvous,
did you hunt him down?
did you hunt him down?
okay, very lame. so under the clear and starry sky, i made a prayer for her and myself. i prayed to make my next one, the right one. i prayed for her to not face any retribution but be blessed and protected to be happy and successful. so yea, the picture above, throughout the night we sat down facing the direction of melbourne, south-east of singapore. oh wells, guess the only problem now is i haven't been eating properly, sleeping properly and even feeling cold easily. okay, shall not act macho, of course i'm facing other problems also, needless to say.
see how i faked a smile when taking the photo? it's the only way to smile for now i guess. hahaha. never smiled so forcefully before. so yea, the girl on the left is melissa, a relatively new friend but a superb listener for me. well, her blog for the past two days says a little about what i have been facing, so i shall let you kaypo people out there indulge for a bit. click here to view her blog and here is one of my favourite parts from her blog...When you love someone, that someone becomes your everything. They mean the world to you, Everything you do, everywhere you go, reminds you of them. They become your everything, and once you lose this person, you lose everything. That's when you get into trouble... in finding yourself back.
then i think removing stuff from my room will be redundant, painting my walls won't help, moving house won't help. maybe migrating may help, anywhere but taiwan or australia i guess. haha. if only life was so flexible and the world was my playground. ugh! anyways, weather has been so rainy and it doesn't help me at all. rains in the day, night as well, think heineken may put me to sleep tonight. hoho!
making vows and promises into lies.
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