the problem with me is, everyday i have a new revelation and i always change my thinking. after days of struggling to live normally and encouragement from people around me, i think i finally have a fixed revelation, conclusion or whatever. i can only look towards the future now and think of what i want for myself. it's time to be selfish and i should not brood over the past anymore.
i am done asking so many questions why, how and all the senseless questions that will do nothing to change what has happened. i know what i want. for you, i want you to be happy and do well in school. for myself, i want the next one to be the right one. i got no thoughts of revenge or any thoughts of letting myself loose and cheapen myself. it's time to learn from my experience and make the next one better. yes i know what i want, only problem i guess now is, who i want?
sometimes forgiving is not enough, when trust is broken, you need time to mend it back. whether this trust can mend faster than the feelings fade away, i really do not know. but i can't help but admit, i am still in love right now. now all we can do is wait, time will tell. i have one last plan in april that will definitely help things if successful, otherwise, too bad. if you are sincere to save things, then you should know what to avoid yea.
for now, all we can do is wait and life goes on. secret rendezvous with some old friends tonight, hopefully it will help cheer me up. welcome to the Broken Hearts Club...
now that it's all said and done...
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